Confession

I think i think too much and it leads me to become a sensitive person. I sometimes think that I am more conform  with my emotions and thoughts than other people.  Yes I think a lot. I think too much before I say or do anything. How about assuming things? Yes, I easily assume what others may think about, easily infer what others feel and think about me.  Just like the others I do everything to fit in and it's weird that I love to be noticed, but I hate being the center of attention.

I’m very sentimental and contemplative. Others may see it as cheesy and too serious, but my humor has its own place and mood. I hate the noise and rowdiness of the crowd talking about humorous but senseless things. I’d rather go away and sit alone, or talk about life and experiences. I’d rather have one or two people with me whom I can get to know personally than a bunch of people who know me in a superficial level. Sometimes I feel that this characteristic of mine became disadvantageous to me. I have a lot of acquaintances, but because of my own self-consciousness and sensitive personality, I have very few close friends. I sometimes have this fear that no one will be able to truly understand and accept me and my complexities, except for my family, and God.

I don’t know why I suddenly had the urge to write about this. Maybe this description of myself reflected my vanities and self-centeredness. I spent too much time doing and thinking about unnecessary things. I somehow had this change of mindset about the way I do things or live my life. The way I think about things, feel about things, see things… they will still be there. But I won’t let it hinder me from experiencing my life to the fullest.  I will start doing more meaningful activities with the time that I have. I won’t watch non sense tv shows or spend too much time online because everyone’s doing it. I won’t do some things just because everyone is doing it. I will start doing things that I know are meaningful and will be of help to myself and to others. I will stop being lazy and start doing useful and meaningful things, things that will have an eternal, lasting impact. After all, God only gave us one life to live, with a timeline that we are uncertain of. That is why we should use it wisely.

Live Life to the Fullest and Enjoy Life!:)